I Am

Girl

I was not born to be polite and adapt my being to meet your level of conformity

I was not born to grow my hair, paint my face and shape my body to fit your ideals of beauty

I was not born to speak in a quiet, regulated tone and only utter careful words to fit the walls of your voice

I was not born to gingerly harness my thoughts and curiosity to dance to the structure of your ideas alone

I was not born to walk cautiously or run in fear because your legs are more important than mine

 

I was born kind, strong, fragile and authentic and of so much more

I have no walls or box to fit in to

I fly high above without barriers and on my own

I was born beautiful, look in my eyes and drink my smile if it is me you truly want to know

Age, society and magazine covers define nothing and frame antiquated ideas of long ago

I was born with raging intellect and a thirst to feel, learn and grow

I do not hold hands with those who can see nothing more

You are not welcome to come for dinner, my table is set for those of substance

My food is for us alone

I was born to dance, run and move my soul as it is free

I have no need to puppet myself because I am standing on your perceived floor

 

I am me

I am a woman

Don’t let your preconceived notions of that hit your ass on the way out the door

 

~Alisa Hutton

 

I Will Be Here

promise

Little soul

We arrive in this world as we were meant to be

Open and free

Loved

My eyes rested on tiny, beautiful you and I fell in love for the first time

In that moment I knew, I understood

This was love, it is what we are built to be and do

All of this, is all of you

Such delicate teaching

Your little hand rested in mine

Snap shots of forever

So deeply imprinted in my heart, inhaled and exhaled in every breath no matter the time or space

Your pure being and all the blessings you bring to me

The harshness of life so hard to understand

My heart not always able to make sense of and protect my most precious dreams

If I can’t do this for you, how can I do this for me?

My heart visits the day you were born and how you taught me about love

My faith is kept in that tiny hand I held, knowing no matter what life brings it always lives in you and me

Life will come with hurt, sadness and so much we will fail to understand

So much hard that it can stray you from who you are

For you my little girl, when the times comes

When you need me most

When life has made you feel lost from your true being and authentic self

My promise to you

I will be here to hold your hand

To remind you that the love you were born with is who you are

It is always there, never left and will always burn strong

I hold it in my heart in a precious place that I keep safe and warm

As you taught me the day your were born

It is always love that will set us free

~Alisa Hutton